There is a feeling of guilt when days start to fill up with thoughts other than Eddie. Or if we do something enjoyable. People continue to tell us how important it is to try and enjoy life. But how are we expected do this when Eddie was robbed of his?
We are trying. And when we do, we take pleasure in the simple things that life has to offer. When something as tragic as this happens to you, everything gets stripped back. So we have purposely stripped back our lifestyle. A walk with Chris or cooking a meal for my family gives me more pleasure than it would have given me in my old life.
It may sound cliche but going through a life changing experience like this alters your whole perspective on life…
Sometimes its worse. Other times its better.
September 12th, 2014 at 11:32 am
I’m so sorry that you lost your precious Eddie and that you know this horrible pain of child loss. With your permission, I’ve added your blog to the site I’ve been curating in memory of my 23 year old son who was killed 27 months ago. http://www.scoop.it/t/grief-and-loss The site is a collection of blogs, articles, videos and other resources for bereaved parents and siblings.
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September 12th, 2014 at 12:03 pm
More than happy to be featured on your site. I am so so sorry for your tragic loss too. Sending love and strength x
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