I made a big decision this week. I handed in my notice to work. They have been incredibly supportive to me since Eddie died but after deliberating for months on whether I should go back or not, I finally made a decision. I couldn’t go back.
When I walked, or waddled to be precise, out of the doors before starting my maternity leave, my life was full of so much hope. Everyone wished me luck with the birth and I promised to bring Eddie into the office after he was born. I was so excited to introduce my beautiful baby boy to my work colleagues but sadly they never got to meet him.
When something as life changing as this happens to you, some people need certainty and stability. I would normally have fallen into that camp, being so fearful of change. Now, I feel the need to change everything in my life.
Going back to work would have felt like nothing has changed at all. But everything has. Especially me.
life after eddie 
October 26th, 2014 at 5:14 pm
Hello, I’ve only recently come across your blog and I wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. I know words are no comfort when you’ve lost your beautiful Eddie but it didn’t feel right to continue to read without at least saying something. Tara.
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October 26th, 2014 at 5:39 pm
Hi Tara, thank you for your kind words. It is and continues to be the most devastating loss but we are grateful for all of the support x
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October 27th, 2014 at 2:23 am
Thank you for sharing this. Since I too am contemplating a career change, it’s do helpful for me to hear I’m not the only one struggling to adapt to the old life. I look forward to reading more about what is to come for you
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October 27th, 2014 at 3:24 pm
Thank you – I look forward to hearing about what you decide to do too x
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